at first by Matt Borczon

          -for Dana

I blamed
a deviated
septum, blamed
the nightmares
left over
from the war,
you blamed
the alcohol
and my restless
twitching, my
screaming out
whenever a
helicopter flew
over the house.

its been
15 years
and we
no longer
sleep in
the same bed

and I
no longer
remember if
this was
your idea
or mine.



Matt Borczon is a nurse and recently retired from the United States Navy. He lives and writes in Erie, PA. He says some days he wins and some days the war wins.