Summer Songs by Christina Kallery

          “I only know that summer sang in me
          A little while, that in me sings no more.”
          — Edna St. Vincent Millay

The fact is Edna wrote those lines
at 28, not 88 or 58 or even 40.
But leave it to a poet to catastrophize
a love gone wrong like it’s your final shot,
the last bus hissing and groaning
off as you race breathless to the stop.

And I should know, because at 18
I flung myself across the bed
and wailed for hours over some scrawny
kid from Drawing 101 as Art
Garfunkel belted Bridge Over Troubled Water
from my boombox til a speaker blew.

And again at 20, only this time
for a guy who quoted Kierkegaard,
gifted me a book of poems (Millay, in fact)
and would stay awake to talk all night
until he didn’t. Which should have been
my cue to get over it instead of moping
for months with Robert Smith
on repeat: I’ve been looking so long
at these pictures of you.

At 25, I penned a last-ditch letter
to an unrequited love, drove frantic
in a downpour to deliver it by hand
then wept all the way back home
to Thom Yorke’s bleakest hits.
I could keep going, but you get the gist.

What Edna and I should have seen
is that summer wasn’t even close
to done. We should have slipped
into our shortest dress, taken
our bright young bodies out
into the sun to sing and sing
and sing again — off-key, too loud,
wrong words, who cares —
like it doesn’t matter how it hurts,
like the snow will never
come and cover us in silence.



Christina Kallery is the author of Adult Night at Skate World, now in its 2nd edition from Dzanc Books. Her poetry has appeared in Rattle, ONE ART, Rust + Moth, and other publications, and has been included in several anthologies, including Best of the Web and Respect: The Poetry of Detroit Music. She currently lives in Ann Arbor, Michigan.