The road lengthens. Death never seems near enough.
The wind points its cold finger at me, acknowledging
my existence. But you, my countryman, see me as the Other.
A presence best buried in the marshes. The frozen regions.
The places where no one ever looks. I’m only dying
naturally, and cannot claim to be surprised that Death has
arrived with a poorly printed invitation in hand. If I could read it,
assuming it was legible, I might accept. But for now I choose
to ignore the typography and arrogance. A man can die his way.
No one, not even Death, can dictate otherwise. Our lives are ours.
Therefore, I will die when and where and how I decide. I choose
to die numb. Vodka is good. An easy favorite. The local choice.
Red wine is nice. Symbolically appropriate. But brandy, if handy,
is better than the rest. I will not be denied this death wish. I am
entitled. Military regulations require “one for the road,” and we all
know what that means. I said earlier something about a long road.
It’s shorter now, the road that is, was my life. Humor a good soldier.
“Give me the brandy! No? You are cheating me!”
*From the author's series on the final words of persons of historical note
Richard Weaver continues as the official writer-in-residence at the James Joyce Pub, though he splits time with Hooley’s Public House in San Diego.
