I thought about pouring it down the storm
drain on my street. The ocean
harmonizes dark and discordant futures.
Or under night's binding I could pour
the tainted mixture in my neighbor’s large yard.
His fence rattles against lengthening summer winds.
But I’ve left the bucket out there
behind the broken bicycle pump and among
the splintering leaves blown in and crumbling stucco
blown down and cracked terra cotta pots filled
with pests and tares counting on tomorrow’s sun
to evaporate the waste I keep
stirring up, the plans
I have for this bucket.
Nick Maurer received an MFA from UC Irvine. He lives in California. Website: jnmaurer.com
Sunday, January 30, 2022
Thursday, January 27, 2022
Blood in a Drought Year by Joe Cottonwood
In a midnight thunderstorm, Jeannie phones
to say a young man pounded on her door
dark and bleeding like a redwing blackbird
so she wrapped his ribs in a sheet.
“Wait a minute. You let him in?”
“Of course! He’s darling!”
Jeannie is 80, still a coquette.
I go next door to Jeannie’s house.
On the floor, drops of blood.
Back yard I find a sheet, scarlet stain.
She won’t let me call the cops.
“He’s the stabbee,” she says. “Not me.”
The oak trees drip but the rain has stopped.
Jeannie shivers hugging her own chest and says
“No matter how badly my body hurts,
nights like this keep me alive.”
Thunderstorms drench the night,
quickly pass. After lightning,
the air is so crisp, so fresh.
We need the rain.
Joe Cottonwood can’t help it. He’s drawn to mountains and a more hardscrabble way of life. From Maryland at the foot of Appalachian ridges, he settled in the Santa Cruz Mountains of California among wildfire and redwoods and the occasional lion.
to say a young man pounded on her door
dark and bleeding like a redwing blackbird
so she wrapped his ribs in a sheet.
“Wait a minute. You let him in?”
“Of course! He’s darling!”
Jeannie is 80, still a coquette.
I go next door to Jeannie’s house.
On the floor, drops of blood.
Back yard I find a sheet, scarlet stain.
She won’t let me call the cops.
“He’s the stabbee,” she says. “Not me.”
The oak trees drip but the rain has stopped.
Jeannie shivers hugging her own chest and says
“No matter how badly my body hurts,
nights like this keep me alive.”
Thunderstorms drench the night,
quickly pass. After lightning,
the air is so crisp, so fresh.
We need the rain.
Joe Cottonwood can’t help it. He’s drawn to mountains and a more hardscrabble way of life. From Maryland at the foot of Appalachian ridges, he settled in the Santa Cruz Mountains of California among wildfire and redwoods and the occasional lion.
Wednesday, January 26, 2022
Sunkissed, Listless by Ash Evan Lippert
Pretend I’m here, in the grove, lilac clouds
like sleeping lion’s heads nodding
against blameless green,
breathing. Say: I am here. I am still
nothing.
& now I will embrace the ebb
to thoughtlessness.
A robin sends
light branches shaking purple.
Failing petals may only
fall, paling in the wind like February
snow. Impermanent. Barely
probable.
& where am I really?
In my apartment, too real & bodied & strewn
amongst my sweat-stained
covers. Watching
the evergreens scatter their ever-green,
clover colored light bare
across my blank-stare walls.
Someone help me, I’ve forgotten how to live
here, in my time;
here, where trees reach to the sun,
unashamed of their need.
Ash Evan Lippert is a clay artist and emerging queer poet residing in the South Carolina upstate. Their work has appeared or is forthcoming in Failed Haiku and Euonia Review. They are happily at work on their first novel, and the ongoing project of parenting two "whimsical" cats. To check out more of their work, please pay them a visit http://wanderstruckreverie.wordpress.com/
like sleeping lion’s heads nodding
against blameless green,
breathing. Say: I am here. I am still
nothing.
& now I will embrace the ebb
to thoughtlessness.
A robin sends
light branches shaking purple.
Failing petals may only
fall, paling in the wind like February
snow. Impermanent. Barely
probable.
& where am I really?
In my apartment, too real & bodied & strewn
amongst my sweat-stained
covers. Watching
the evergreens scatter their ever-green,
clover colored light bare
across my blank-stare walls.
Someone help me, I’ve forgotten how to live
here, in my time;
here, where trees reach to the sun,
unashamed of their need.
Ash Evan Lippert is a clay artist and emerging queer poet residing in the South Carolina upstate. Their work has appeared or is forthcoming in Failed Haiku and Euonia Review. They are happily at work on their first novel, and the ongoing project of parenting two "whimsical" cats. To check out more of their work, please pay them a visit http://wanderstruckreverie.wordpress.com/
Tuesday, January 25, 2022
Oldest Son by Al Ortolani
As a boy we had a dog die
about once a year. They ran loose,
each morning leaving the house,
returning at night from wherever
the neighborhood pack took them.
We knew each member of the pack by name,
by their owner’s names,
by their speed, their thievery, their bark.
They chased cars on the county road,
and ate the poisoned meat
the farmers set out for rats.
Dogs were free. By that, I mean
we never paid for a puppy.
They came to us tumble deep
in cardboard boxes. Someone
always had a dog to give away.
A “Free” sign, once painted, was kept
in the garage next to the scrap lumber.
Mother handed me a shovel and the car keys.
She said, go before the others get home.
I used a towel, rubbery with Shinola.
I sunk the spade like my father did,
used my weight to lift the earth.
Al Ortolani is the Manuscript Editor for Woodley Press in Topeka, Kansas, and has directed a memoir writing project for Vietnam veterans across Kansas in association with the Library of Congress and Humanities Kansas. He is a 2019 recipient of the Rattle Chapbook Series Award.
about once a year. They ran loose,
each morning leaving the house,
returning at night from wherever
the neighborhood pack took them.
We knew each member of the pack by name,
by their owner’s names,
by their speed, their thievery, their bark.
They chased cars on the county road,
and ate the poisoned meat
the farmers set out for rats.
Dogs were free. By that, I mean
we never paid for a puppy.
They came to us tumble deep
in cardboard boxes. Someone
always had a dog to give away.
A “Free” sign, once painted, was kept
in the garage next to the scrap lumber.
Mother handed me a shovel and the car keys.
She said, go before the others get home.
I used a towel, rubbery with Shinola.
I sunk the spade like my father did,
used my weight to lift the earth.
Al Ortolani is the Manuscript Editor for Woodley Press in Topeka, Kansas, and has directed a memoir writing project for Vietnam veterans across Kansas in association with the Library of Congress and Humanities Kansas. He is a 2019 recipient of the Rattle Chapbook Series Award.
Monday, January 24, 2022
Nearing Sedalia by Al Ortolani
There’s a silo along the highway
with a tree growing out of it, the top
branches splayed across the sky
like an umbrella, like an anemone.
It’s a landmark for us as we drive
across Missouri, as much a mile marker
as a small town, a fishing creek
with an iron bridge, a cemetery
in a children’s game.
We watch for it on the hill
behind the barn, behind the ghost sign
faded across the barn roof:
hickory baskets, walnut bowls, moccasins.
The silo is made from tile bricks,
carefully cemented, the domed roof
of sheet metal and wood collapsed,
blown into the pasture, the sapling
in a cylinder of sun.
Al Ortolani is the Manuscript Editor for Woodley Press in Topeka, Kansas, and has directed a memoir writing project for Vietnam veterans across Kansas in association with the Library of Congress and Humanities Kansas. He is a 2019 recipient of the Rattle Chapbook Series Award.
with a tree growing out of it, the top
branches splayed across the sky
like an umbrella, like an anemone.
It’s a landmark for us as we drive
across Missouri, as much a mile marker
as a small town, a fishing creek
with an iron bridge, a cemetery
in a children’s game.
We watch for it on the hill
behind the barn, behind the ghost sign
faded across the barn roof:
hickory baskets, walnut bowls, moccasins.
The silo is made from tile bricks,
carefully cemented, the domed roof
of sheet metal and wood collapsed,
blown into the pasture, the sapling
in a cylinder of sun.
Al Ortolani is the Manuscript Editor for Woodley Press in Topeka, Kansas, and has directed a memoir writing project for Vietnam veterans across Kansas in association with the Library of Congress and Humanities Kansas. He is a 2019 recipient of the Rattle Chapbook Series Award.
Sunday, January 23, 2022
Uprooting the Lilac by Al Ortolani
Today, we plant a Limelight hydrangea
in the hole where we dug out the lilac,
where just a month ago, I chopped back
the roots with my garage sale axe.
My wife gave up on it ever flowering,
tall and spindly, spreading
everywhere and nowhere at once.
She gave it seven years to get itself together,
to become a lilac goddammit.
The shovel popped and bent as I pried
the root ball from the earth, the brown
soil, greasy with clay, with shards
of sandstone. The tap root gripped
until it gave, and only the silence held.
Al Ortolani is the Manuscript Editor for Woodley Press in Topeka, Kansas, and has directed a memoir writing project for Vietnam veterans across Kansas in association with the Library of Congress and Humanities Kansas. He is a 2019 recipient of the Rattle Chapbook Series Award.
in the hole where we dug out the lilac,
where just a month ago, I chopped back
the roots with my garage sale axe.
My wife gave up on it ever flowering,
tall and spindly, spreading
everywhere and nowhere at once.
She gave it seven years to get itself together,
to become a lilac goddammit.
The shovel popped and bent as I pried
the root ball from the earth, the brown
soil, greasy with clay, with shards
of sandstone. The tap root gripped
until it gave, and only the silence held.
Al Ortolani is the Manuscript Editor for Woodley Press in Topeka, Kansas, and has directed a memoir writing project for Vietnam veterans across Kansas in association with the Library of Congress and Humanities Kansas. He is a 2019 recipient of the Rattle Chapbook Series Award.
Saturday, January 22, 2022
Bingo Faith by Ellen Skilton
What if loftiness is a false flower —
and the church’s real purpose is
bingo faith, not sanctuary salvation?
My grandmother was a prophet
of generosity, her cash creed:
You don’t win if you don’t give it away.
Much more than mad money,
her profits from games of chance
were pillars of her ballsy beliefs.
She’d quietly teach me her own
moral code, whispering of her best friend:
She never wins because she keeps it all.
Once, I saw her use her own shoe
to create a secret stain and a righteous
discount on an overpriced baby hat.
In the early 80’s, when I had big hair,
born-again friends told me this scorching untruth:
Your grandmother is going to hell.
These Saturday-bingo-grandmas
that don’t pray in pews get tut-tutting from
Sunday-church-goers so damn sure they’re blessed.
They are all wrong. Helen’s holiness shined
in bright kitchen light, adding up winnings
and givings in her flowered, cotton housedress.
Ellen Skilton is a professor of education whose creative writing has appeared in The Dewdrop, Cathexis Northwest Press, The Scapegoat Review, and The Dillydoun Review. She is also an excellent napper, a chocolate snob, a swimmer, and lives in Philadelphia with a dog named Zoomer, a cat named Katniss and some lovely humans.
and the church’s real purpose is
bingo faith, not sanctuary salvation?
My grandmother was a prophet
of generosity, her cash creed:
You don’t win if you don’t give it away.
Much more than mad money,
her profits from games of chance
were pillars of her ballsy beliefs.
She’d quietly teach me her own
moral code, whispering of her best friend:
She never wins because she keeps it all.
Once, I saw her use her own shoe
to create a secret stain and a righteous
discount on an overpriced baby hat.
In the early 80’s, when I had big hair,
born-again friends told me this scorching untruth:
Your grandmother is going to hell.
These Saturday-bingo-grandmas
that don’t pray in pews get tut-tutting from
Sunday-church-goers so damn sure they’re blessed.
They are all wrong. Helen’s holiness shined
in bright kitchen light, adding up winnings
and givings in her flowered, cotton housedress.
Ellen Skilton is a professor of education whose creative writing has appeared in The Dewdrop, Cathexis Northwest Press, The Scapegoat Review, and The Dillydoun Review. She is also an excellent napper, a chocolate snob, a swimmer, and lives in Philadelphia with a dog named Zoomer, a cat named Katniss and some lovely humans.
Wednesday, January 19, 2022
The Chapel by Brandon McQuade
In the quiet hours
the wind howls
and the snow drifts
like mountains.
The fire burning
in the hearth
of the chapel,
in the heart
of birch and frost
is not lost
on this wilderness.
These are the keys
to our survival
and comfort—
necessary fragments
of our domestic,
modern world:
knife, tent, firestarter,
pen and paper, a good book
and a sack lunch—
companions we carry with us
like torches into the wild.
Brandon McQuade is the founding editor of Duck Head Journal. His debut chapbook, Bleeding Heart was published by Kelsay Books (2021) and is available on Amazon. His debut collection, Mango Seed, is forthcoming with Scurfpea Publishing. He lives in Gillette, Wyoming with his wife, Jacqlyn and their children.
the wind howls
and the snow drifts
like mountains.
The fire burning
in the hearth
of the chapel,
in the heart
of birch and frost
is not lost
on this wilderness.
These are the keys
to our survival
and comfort—
necessary fragments
of our domestic,
modern world:
knife, tent, firestarter,
pen and paper, a good book
and a sack lunch—
companions we carry with us
like torches into the wild.
Brandon McQuade is the founding editor of Duck Head Journal. His debut chapbook, Bleeding Heart was published by Kelsay Books (2021) and is available on Amazon. His debut collection, Mango Seed, is forthcoming with Scurfpea Publishing. He lives in Gillette, Wyoming with his wife, Jacqlyn and their children.
Saturday, January 15, 2022
Between Us by Deirdre Fagan
My husband takes the dog along
to gather the mail.
His grey matching winter’s muzzle,
a retriever seamlessly blending into snow.
The walk to the box is as long as a meadow;
a city block to remember from whence he came.
Once, there was no dog, no country home,
only letters through a slit in the door.
Four bedrooms, one occupied—no children,
no wife.
We are nearly ten years into this game—
we’re still playing.
But that’s not what he’s thinking as I eye
him from the window—the dog flanking his calves.
It’s the distance that excites, it’s the return;
it’s the marrow between us.
Deirdre Fagan is a widow, wife, mother of two and associate professor at Ferris State University. Fagan is the author of the memoir Find a Place for Me (forthcoming, 2022), a collection of short stories, The Grief Eater (2020), and a poetry chapbook, Have Love (2019). Meet her at deirdrefagan.com
to gather the mail.
His grey matching winter’s muzzle,
a retriever seamlessly blending into snow.
The walk to the box is as long as a meadow;
a city block to remember from whence he came.
Once, there was no dog, no country home,
only letters through a slit in the door.
Four bedrooms, one occupied—no children,
no wife.
We are nearly ten years into this game—
we’re still playing.
But that’s not what he’s thinking as I eye
him from the window—the dog flanking his calves.
It’s the distance that excites, it’s the return;
it’s the marrow between us.
Deirdre Fagan is a widow, wife, mother of two and associate professor at Ferris State University. Fagan is the author of the memoir Find a Place for Me (forthcoming, 2022), a collection of short stories, The Grief Eater (2020), and a poetry chapbook, Have Love (2019). Meet her at deirdrefagan.com
Friday, January 14, 2022
Arlington Racetrack by Jason Fisk
I used to want to spend
my summers
at the horse track
writing about the characters
I would see there
but I never got around to it
Now the track has
permanently closed
and I’m stuck writing
mediocre poems
about failed plans
to write great poems
Jason Fisk lives and writes in the suburbs of Chicago. He has worked in a psychiatric unit, labored in a cabinet factory, and mixed cement for a bricklayer. He was born in Ohio, raised in Minnesota, and has spent the last few decades in the Chicago area. He has a novel, The Craigslist Incident, coming out in June. www.jasonfisk.com
my summers
at the horse track
writing about the characters
I would see there
but I never got around to it
Now the track has
permanently closed
and I’m stuck writing
mediocre poems
about failed plans
to write great poems
Jason Fisk lives and writes in the suburbs of Chicago. He has worked in a psychiatric unit, labored in a cabinet factory, and mixed cement for a bricklayer. He was born in Ohio, raised in Minnesota, and has spent the last few decades in the Chicago area. He has a novel, The Craigslist Incident, coming out in June. www.jasonfisk.com
Thursday, January 13, 2022
Ghost Garden by Jason Fisk
She lived alone in the middle part of the country
In a little blue ranch house with white trim
She loved her family and her garden
The grandkids helped her weed
when they visited from out of state
She would reward them
with cinnamon candy
and iced tea
She used to straighten the house
every night before bed
I once asked her why
and she told me
that it was for the paramedics
She didn’t want them
to see a dirty house
when they came
to take her away
She told me that she
was just waiting
to go be reunited
with Grandpa Earl
in heaven
After her funeral
I went to the blue house
and walked inside
It was clean
which made me smile
I walked to the back
and opened the sliding glass door
and saw her garden
The overgrowth reminded me
of how long it had been since I’d visited
An aching loss churned in my stomach
And then I noticed a sweet little rosebud
peeking through the purple and green
of the inhospitable thistle
and I started pulling
the weeds away
from the base of the rose
My arms and hands torn
by the various thorns
It somehow felt right
I went into the garage
and got a shovel
and a bucket
and I dug the rose up
and put it in the bucket
I drove to her new grave
and planted it
where I imagined
her heart would be
Jason Fisk lives and writes in the suburbs of Chicago. He has worked in a psychiatric unit, labored in a cabinet factory, and mixed cement for a bricklayer. He was born in Ohio, raised in Minnesota, and has spent the last few decades in the Chicago area. He has a novel, The Craigslist Incident, coming out in June. www.jasonfisk.com
In a little blue ranch house with white trim
She loved her family and her garden
The grandkids helped her weed
when they visited from out of state
She would reward them
with cinnamon candy
and iced tea
She used to straighten the house
every night before bed
I once asked her why
and she told me
that it was for the paramedics
She didn’t want them
to see a dirty house
when they came
to take her away
She told me that she
was just waiting
to go be reunited
with Grandpa Earl
in heaven
After her funeral
I went to the blue house
and walked inside
It was clean
which made me smile
I walked to the back
and opened the sliding glass door
and saw her garden
The overgrowth reminded me
of how long it had been since I’d visited
An aching loss churned in my stomach
And then I noticed a sweet little rosebud
peeking through the purple and green
of the inhospitable thistle
and I started pulling
the weeds away
from the base of the rose
My arms and hands torn
by the various thorns
It somehow felt right
I went into the garage
and got a shovel
and a bucket
and I dug the rose up
and put it in the bucket
I drove to her new grave
and planted it
where I imagined
her heart would be
Jason Fisk lives and writes in the suburbs of Chicago. He has worked in a psychiatric unit, labored in a cabinet factory, and mixed cement for a bricklayer. He was born in Ohio, raised in Minnesota, and has spent the last few decades in the Chicago area. He has a novel, The Craigslist Incident, coming out in June. www.jasonfisk.com
Monday, January 10, 2022
Winter Birds by Jack Powers
I keep thinking they missed their cue,
seduced by some false November sun
and now suffering for their sins.
Such scrawny legs and feet, translucent claws!
Yet they seem to survive: chickadee, junco
nuthatch, cardinal. These birds of winter searching
for seeds, spiders, tree buds, fluffing their feathers
for warmth–alone, in pairs or flocks
that litter my yard or string themselves
in black rosaries across the sky.
In a blizzard they disappear, huddling,
I hope, in hedges, the downwind side of trees.
In the morning sun, a nuthatch flutters in a backyard fir,
tooting his horn like an answered prayer.
Jack Powers is the author of Everybody's Vaguely Familiar. His poems have appeared in The Southern Review, The Cortland Review, Inkwell and elsewhere. He won the 2015 and 2012 Connecticut River Review Poetry Contests and was a finalist for the 2013 and 2014 Rattle Poetry Prizes. Visit his website: http://www.jackpowers13.com/poetry/.
seduced by some false November sun
and now suffering for their sins.
Such scrawny legs and feet, translucent claws!
Yet they seem to survive: chickadee, junco
nuthatch, cardinal. These birds of winter searching
for seeds, spiders, tree buds, fluffing their feathers
for warmth–alone, in pairs or flocks
that litter my yard or string themselves
in black rosaries across the sky.
In a blizzard they disappear, huddling,
I hope, in hedges, the downwind side of trees.
In the morning sun, a nuthatch flutters in a backyard fir,
tooting his horn like an answered prayer.
Jack Powers is the author of Everybody's Vaguely Familiar. His poems have appeared in The Southern Review, The Cortland Review, Inkwell and elsewhere. He won the 2015 and 2012 Connecticut River Review Poetry Contests and was a finalist for the 2013 and 2014 Rattle Poetry Prizes. Visit his website: http://www.jackpowers13.com/poetry/.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)